aggie

im sad about things, but happy about many things also. i love that i get to have a future with my beloved--and i do fucking believe we will have one, holy shit, and i love them. i love the time i get to spend with my friends. i love the things i get to do in this world and i wish i could do more of them--i wish people realized that my anger over not being able to do things is rooted in love for the world + finally being so happy with my life in a way previous me could never even have fathomed.

tomorrow i go to meeting again and mom is dropping me off so i finally get to stay behind for social stuff. i hope im not just sitting alone lol. oh well. i will never know unless i try.. i am having so much fun with meeting lol, we have our first spiritual formation social group on the 28th and im excited to get to know some fellow Friends. becoming quaker really has been so good for me :3 

i'm super behind in school so i gotta spend all of tomorrow catching up when i get home. it sucks because ive been so damn tired lately. that fucking october slide, lmao. but its ok. i will deal with my penalties i guess. not much else i can do besides pull an all nighter tomorrow. i finally am having some energy so i should work on it now but my brain fog is insane. i've been REALLY dissociative lately. like i've just been deeply dissociated and i think its bc school is so triggering to even be in but. whatevs

i kinda wanna revive my bookwyrm instance???? like i always get nervous posting my reviews on storygraph, i've been having fun putting them on my blog but gahhhhhhhhhhhhh. i want them all in one place too. i am doing this to procrastinate reading. my book wheel landed on Half His Age but i just bought this book bundle so i might start with some of those. 

i also wanna get work on my short storiessssss i am gonna make a short story compilation about my yellowjackets knockoff age gap yuri ship and im really excited :3 

uhh... i don't know what else. welcome to my journal. my sillyblog 2.0 . enjoyf