Oct 7-10

Sat, 10 Oct 2026 08:34:50 GMT

I didn't update for a few days because I was tired and slept most of them, but I went to a CupcakKe concert on the 8th, but she didn't come out for 2 hours after the scheduled time and it was standing room only, so I was in severe pain and had to leave before she came on. I also had 3 drinks and got suuuper drunk---drunk for the very first time in my life. It wasn't bad! I wasn't super inhibited or anything, just out of it and dizzy really. I'm REALLY sad she sorta blew us off and it's almost soured her music for me. She is such an idol of mine... ugh. I'm so sad about it.

Plus, everyone there was with all of their friends who were having such a good time together and I was all alone. It really hurt. A cute gay boy came up to me and said I was gorgeous and that made my night though. but man. I'm really bummed, and also in a LOT of pain now.

Still suuper behind in school. Idk what I'm going to do!!! I have a test I may have to take tomorrow if I can't get accommodations from the testing center (the prof gave them to me already) and I'm NOT prepared. I'm just not prepared for anything. I'm really struggling.

Ngl, my head is in the clouds! I'm so happy for some personal things I've got going on right now that I could beam everywhere like an eternal pink sun :DDDDDDD I am so excited for my future. I'm just so excited. I'm over the moon. But planning for my future has sort of distracted me from my schoolwork :( I can't think about anything besides certain beautiful things. Keep me in the Light here please.

I have my first Meeting for Business on Sunday! I don't know how it goes but I'm super excited. Being a Friend and in community with Friends has made me SO happy. I feel like a real adult!!! I'm enjoying attending and everyone there seems to enjoy me too. I feel very accepted for my sexuality and identity. First day there an older lady asked if she could hug me. I said yes, thank you for asking. She said, my kids told me I have to ask now, I didn't know that but it makes sense!! We laughed so hard together. I'm really glad I have a community.

I'm trying to work on exchange stuff. I messed up my ToT offers so I had to default there. I'm not doing well on the "finish everything" bingo card square lol. But I did start on some original erotica so there's that...

I hope I can get caught back up with life soon. Peace out folks.

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september 26, 2026

Sun, 27 Sep 2026 03:07:25 GMT

im sad about things, but happy about many things also. i love that i get to have a future with my beloved--and i do fucking believe we will have one, holy shit, and i love them. i love the time i get to spend with my friends. i love the things i get to do in this world and i wish i could do more of them--i wish people realized that my anger over not being able to do things is rooted in love for the world + finally being so happy with my life in a way previous me could never even have fathomed.

tomorrow i go to meeting again and mom is dropping me off so i finally get to stay behind for social stuff. i hope im not just sitting alone lol. oh well. i will never know unless i try.. i am having so much fun with meeting lol, we have our first spiritual formation social group on the 28th and im excited to get to know some fellow Friends. becoming quaker really has been so good for me :3

i'm super behind in school so i gotta spend all of tomorrow catching up when i get home. it sucks because ive been so damn tired lately. that fucking october slide, lmao. but its ok. i will deal with my penalties i guess. not much else i can do besides pull an all nighter tomorrow. i finally am having some energy so i should work on it now but my brain fog is insane. i've been REALLY dissociative lately. like i've just been deeply dissociated and i think its bc school is so triggering to even be in but. whatevs

i kinda wanna revive my bookwyrm instance???? like i always get nervous posting my reviews on storygraph, i've been having fun putting them on my blog but gahhhhhhhhhhhhh. i want them all in one place too. i am doing this to procrastinate reading. my book wheel landed on Half His Age but i just bought this book bundle so i might start with some of those.

i also wanna get work on my short storiessssss i am gonna make a short story compilation about my yellowjackets knockoff age gap yuri ship and im really excited :3

uhh... i don't know what else. welcome to my journal. my sillyblog 2.0 . enjoyf

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aggie

Oct 7-10

september 26, 2026